So what would you say you do here?

There's this consistent bug in my ear that's telling me, "You should be doing more." It's a feeling that tells me I should be making more money, that I should be doing more meaningful work, that I should be making serious decisions with important people, etc. This bug weighs heavy on my back as being a dad there is an increased pressure to "do right for your kids."

And yet, these thoughts and base emotions of wanting to be the best fall on deaf ears and lethargic attitudes. Moreover, these desires to be "doing more" are oftentimes dismissed as an inflated ego. I don't really need to be in the thick of things. What makes me more worthy than the next person? Nothing. Who's to say that I deserve to be making more money? I may work hard, but I'm not WORKING in the sense of breaking my back and putting my life at risk. I push papers and try to make sure my company has enough money to keep the lights on and people employed. I'm a do nothing in a world of achievers.

It sucks to think of it like that, but the truth really hurts.